Monday, July 28, 2008

沉香手串

  一位朋友在越南买了一个手串给我,刚开始时觉得这手串没什么特别,就像一个普通的木制手串。不过我也很高兴收下,价格不重要,重的是情义。:) 后来听朋友的母亲说这个手串还说这手串整三百块马币,觉得自己好像有些不识货喔。于是我左看右看,想了解这冬冬怎么会这么贵呢?

  后来经过我朋友介绍,才知道这个是“沉香”手串,我还刻意问了她中文怎么写?听她说这手串有趋凶辟邪之效,她还说沉香越来越少,听说好的沉香可以卖到十万块钱。这种木真的很奇怪,会发出一种药材香味,据说YSL有些香水也采用这种材料。除此之外还可以做成药材。当晚特意上网查了一些有关沉香的资料。英文叫"Agarwood". 据说佛教,基督教和回教都有用这种材料作为宗教用途,沉香也被喻为“植物中的钻石”

  一些关于沉香有趣的介绍:

  。。。。“沉香是中医的珍贵药品与养生保健圣品,同时,在世界五大宗教的庆典、祭祀仪式中,能燃烧沉香被视为敬奉神灵的至高形式,更是个人修行时不可或缺的圣品。 1、是敬佛礼神的圣品;2、理气开窍,且其神秘香气人工无法合成;3、镇邪化煞,趋吉避凶,其气善神喜近而恶鬼远离;4、定魄安魂,是唯一能通三界的香气;5、五教圣品,能去除种种不洁。沉香是世界五大宗教共同认同的稀世珍宝。

佛教——沉香是供佛的重要香品之一,被奉为香中之王。沉香是“浴佛”的主要香料之一,沉香木雕刻的念珠、佛像等是极珍贵的佛具,沉香制作的熏香不仅用于礼佛,还是参禅打坐的上等香品。
基督教-——圣经约翰福音第十九章三十九节提到:「又有尼哥底母,就是前见耶稣的带着没药和沉香约一百斤前来」。沉香是基督降世前,三位先知带来世间的三件宝物(沉香、没药、乳香) 之一。
道教——在降魔驱邪的仪式中燃烧沉香,以铜制容器装盛沉香,终日点燃,象征天地间和合盈盛之气,称为『氤氲缭绕』,是修持中悟入圣道必备的珍品。
回教——常使用于重要庆典中的香熏仪式,并以沉香油为往生者擦拭身体。佛教界对于沉香末、片,一般用于参禅诵经、熏坛洒净和举行大型法会时煨烧。较高级者则用于饮香,或制作成佛珠佩挂于身上、手腕,于念经念咒时拨动佛珠,沉香珠因受体温加热和经咒加持而散发出的香气,足以理气调中,定神安灵矣。。。”

  我今天特地发了一封邮件给她,感谢她的礼物,我说本来我不是很喜欢戴这些东西的,不过这个手串带起来不会很重,非常轻,而且那淡淡的药材香味也不会让人感到讨厌,又不会很紧,所以我现在还是戴着它呢。

The New A4!


今天难得网络顺畅,所以多写几篇部落格。
那天和友人去欣赏刚上市的奥迪A4,觉得这辆新款A4实在是太漂亮了,本人觉得比新款的奔驰C Class还略胜一筹。宝马我到觉得不怎样。这款汽车标价马币235,000,单单保险每个月也得花五百块钱,真是&^@$!^!@!(*&^. 如果打半折的话,我想我会立刻下定金。
我最欣赏那14颗HID灯,不管晚上还是白天总是开着的,一颗颗蓝蓝的眼睛,酷极了,为这辆车带来一股杀气,里面的材质用料就不用多说了,比宝马三系车种肯定好多了。我向来觉得奥迪车系很有个人风格,在满街都是奔驰和宝马的时候,它独束一格,显出它自己高贵但不高调的一面。。。所以在我念中学时我就很喜欢当时的1996 A6车款,等我在美国想买车时,我就一直在网上寻找A6的资料,但是基于我的姑姑会对我买好车有意见,所以我都没敢买自己真正喜欢的车子,只买了实惠的Civic。 回到了马来,想买部二手的A4, 结果我哥哥又说奥迪修理很贵什么的,其实我又不是用他的钱买,但是他那么说,我也不好意思买了。
上次去新加坡出差,我那位女老板原来是开新款A6的,我不禁心里“感叹”了一下,“真是英雄所见略同呀。。。”呵呵。
不过如果有一天你看到我开的是二手宝马,或是奔驰,那不是因为我很喜欢,只是价钱比较Ok,而且开起来也比较安全,很爽,不是为了要炫耀喔.. Hahahah

117 & 114


我妈说舅舅介绍了一个很好喝的咖啡牌子,日本出的,大约二十六块马币,算比较贵的。上次她买了一罐,在我还没尝到之前被我妈和我妹喝光了。人家说水瓶座的人好奇心最强,真的说中了,所以我特地到超市买了“117”回来,结果我妈说我买错了,应该是“114”才对。结果我拿了半罐到公司喝,剩下一半给他们。我妈和我妹很快就喝光。
我试验性的喝了117,觉得不怎样,不过就是苦了一点,“117”是苦味较重,酸味较轻, “114”正好相反。过了一个月,昨天我突然心血来潮,跑去把“114”整回来。 今早一到公司,开机以后就马上去弄杯114咖啡,闻了下,觉得香味不比Nescafe Gold Blend香,喝起来总觉得咖啡带少许酸,反而117更强。
晚上回家时我跟我妈说,这个114不怎样,反而Nescafe Gold Blend更香,结果她说我“不会品尝咖啡。”。。哇唠!~ 我再想是不是他们“哈日”!

Durian Fest in Ericsson


There was a durian fest in Ericsson last Friday, I heard from my colleague that the company had ordered RM2000 in value of durians for the staff, there were Rambutans and Manggis as well. The email was sent few days ago about the durian fest.
On Friday, there is no announcement at all, but it seems that all the staff are aware of it, almost everyone went downstairs at 3pm to look for durians. A light truck was driven into the office area and two guys started to open durians non-stop with parangs, everyone reach out their hands like refugees begging for humanitarian supplies.. hahahaha
I am not sure how much I ate, but for sure I will control my eating habit, some of the durians are quite good, as they were "D24"s mixed in the basket.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Rubik's Cube




I was on the LRT today, on my way back to home, I saw this pretty Malay chick sitting one seat opposite of me... She is around 22-24, got very nice and fair skin, nice permed hair which I think a lady need to invest a few hundred RM every month to maintain such condition; a TAG Heuer 2000 series with white dial which I can tell from the bracelet, a LV handbag and a bigger branded bag on the floor...


But then, a young chap next to me caught my attention... he was twisting and turning a Rubik's cube in front of the pretty Malay girl. I remember when I was a little kid, may be around 6-7 yrs old, my relative's house got such a toy. Blardy hell, it takes me quite a long time to make one set of color, and my brother, who is 2 yrs older than me, manage to make two sets of colors. I tell you what, this young chap manage to make all the colors!


Well, you might say that is nothing to shout about, and is not that difficult right? Okay, after he made the six colors, he twist and turn again by shuffling the color. I can tell he want to redo the six colors again, this time, I secretly time how fast he can to the trick, I looked at my watch, it is 5:07pm when he start to twist and turn the Rubik's cube, guess what? He finished the 6 colors at 5:09pm!! I felt like I wanna turn my head to him and say, "Hey dude, you are really good!". If he can finish this in 2 minutes when the Rubik's cube just releases back in 1974, I think he will be called "genius"! Well, so far I haven't done more than 2 colors yet when I was a little kid, may be I should try one now, see if I can find of the trick on how to make 6 colors.




Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Mines Wonderland Pic V




Mines Wonderland Pic IV






Mines Wonderland Pic III






Mines Wonderland Pic II







I think the "Ice Palace" inside Mines Wonderland is the best place. This is because inside the house, the temperature is as low as negative 10 degree celcius. At first I thought I don't need the jacket, but once I stepped into it, I ask my friend to hand me the jacket right away, cuz it is very COLD!! I can feel pain on my ears somemore, no joking! My sister used to told me long time ago about this place in Mines which is damn cold inside. Now I really got a chance to experience it. :)

Mines Wonderland Pics I

My friend, Wang Min is going back to China, so I decided to take her to somewhere in Malaysia which she never been before, after some fact findings, it seems that she never been to Mines Wonderland before, so I organize a mini trip for her with her friends.
To cut in short, there is not much to see in Mines Wonderland, if you ask me if I will come back again, my answer is a big 'NO'. :)

Wang Ruo Chen

Michael
Wang Min

Mines Wonderland Mini Tour




Sunday, July 13, 2008

Olympic Rank and Win Contest

I bought a new washing machine from SenQ recently, so I am eligible to participate in this SenQ Olympic Rate and Win contest where as you will 'rank' on which are the top 15 countries that will be most likely to get most of the gold medals in Olympic.
So I went to olympic website and did a research on their past three years result. For this year, I am betting that China will be the top gold medals winner due to home court advantage. I am better the top winners will be 1. China, 2. USA, 3. Russia, 4. Australia, 5. Germany.
During my research, I found out that Cuba is quite good in sport too despite they are just a small island country! They are always the top 15 in Olympic. This is something I never expected, all I know about Cuba is their Cuban cigars, Cuban pretty girls (according to my ex boss who work in Latin American for quite some time) and Fidel Castro.
Anyway, the prizes for this contest will be a 42 inch Panasonic Plasma TV, there will be 88 units for your to win. I just won a 32 inch Philipps LCD TV from Citibank few months ago by answering a few questions regarding KLCC. Now I will try my luck on thie 42 inch Plasma. In case you are curious where is the 32' LCD TV now, well, I sold it to my neighbor for RM1800, I will sell thie plasma TV as well if the price is ok, if not, I will just have it installed into my room.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Is this a Bleeding Heart or a Dying Heart?


Grandma on the loose

While I was about to reach my home, I saw there is a girl on the left side along the road, around 15 years old with school uniform, seems like hugging an old lady which is around 80 something years old trying to pull her over from the drain with all her might.

When I drove passed them I saw the girl is like very mad and want to hit the old lady with my rear view mirror. After drving for about 100 meter, I decided to u-turn my car to check out what is going on. I stopped my car somewhere near to the scene, hopefully I can get an answer out of it.


An Indian motorcyclist already stopped over there, I approach the motocyclist and ask the him what is going on? The girl with school uniform already went back to the house, I think her mother came out later on, the old lady was sitting next to the drain. The indian guy told me that the old lady trying to walk across the busy road and her family tried to stop her. She refused to go back even though her family members try to pull her back. So I ask the motorcyclist do you think they need help, or perhaps you and me can carry the old lady back?

At that moment, the mother of the school girl felt a little bit embarassed and luckily the old lady manage to stand up by herself and willing to follow her daughter-in-law back to her house by walking slowly. After I saw that, I turn away my back and started to walk back to my car. On my way home, I think that sometimes you will see a lot of these kind of kind-hearted people in Malaysia, just like the Indian chap, at least, he will stopped and find out what is going on, and be ready to lend any helping hands if needed, same thing happened when there is a car accident going on with people injured. Some people might think that he is just 'busy body' but I don't think so. There are a lot of bad guys in this world but luckily, the good one is always more than the bad ones. I think I remember I saw this phrase in the forum, correct me if I am wrong, it says something like "Evil will prevail when the good guys chose not to do anything about it."

Also, when I look at the lady, I also fear that one day I might be like her. Probably I just loose my mind and loose my reasoning skill one day when I get old, thus, I don't think I want to live that long seriously, may be around 70 y/o is good enough, just let me leave the world peacefully.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

張艾嘉的故事

Something worth reading... I post it to share with you guys

張艾嘉的故事

你真的知道你要的是什麼嗎 ? 富貴或貧賤,每個人都在人生中學習 …… 張艾嘉,也許可以號稱是最出色的女人-從叛逆少女到金馬影后,從未婚媽媽到兩次婚姻,從名演員到大導演… 她,似乎天生帶著光環,舉手股足間都在製造新聞,賺著人氣。 然而,一夜之間,她就變了,開始隨遇而安,變得平易近人,懂得享受無處不在的快樂;更重要的,明白了做普通人的樂趣 …… 一切的一切,都從她的愛子被綁架開始。 張艾嘉在綁架案結案之後,面對媒體有這樣一番話: "一直以為最重要的是盛名,時時處處想保持常青,不管是婚姻還是兒子,都當作自身招牌的一點金漆,從未將自己從高處放下,好好審視一下生活。直到兒子的生命受到威脅的時候,方才明瞭最珍貴的財富並非那個熠熠的金字招牌。 熙熙攘攘,皆為利來;攘攘熙熙,皆為名往。以前,我就是攘攘熙熙中的一分子,結果從相夫到教子處處一敗塗地。 "

◆ 嫁給羅大佑,臺灣最有名的男人
我是一個銜著金鑰匙出生的孩子:外祖父曾任臺灣高官,父親是空軍軍官,母親是臺灣著名的大美人。 出生不久,我就跟著母親去美國定居接受教育。 16 歲那年,我不再樂意讀書,覺得娛樂圈五彩繽紛,便回到臺灣一腳踏了進去。21 歲,便成了金馬獎最佳女配角,隨後又兩次榮獲金馬獎最佳女主角。別人追逐一輩子而不可得的東西,於我而言,手到擒來得順理成章。 在鮮花和掌聲中,我也越來越喜歡這種被人追捧的感覺。 我告訴自己,來這世上走一 遭,一定要盡情享受最榮耀最輝煌的一切,那時年少輕狂,覺得能配上自己的男人,似乎只有名聲赫赫的音樂教父羅大佑了。 與羅大佑交往,純粹是為了拉風,為了讓人羡慕,卻沒有過任何長久發展、終生廝守的念頭。那時的我,的確充滿魅力,漂亮、成功 ……男人心目中完美愛人必須具備的條件我幾乎全部都有。羅大佑也不例外,在我與他的初戀女友之間,他最終選擇了我。我覺得這是意料之中的,任何一個男人都應該毫不猶豫地選我。然後,我與羅大佑風光無限地同入同出,盡情地享受被所有男人凝視、被所有女人嫉妒的快感。我與羅大佑的戀情不像是感情,更像一件璀璨奪目的首飾。可是,一個女人,自然不能只有一件首飾吧?於是,影壇帥哥、商界精英、政壇要人…… 隔三岔五就隨著他們一起接受眾人矚目。忘記了自己還有個男友叫羅大佑,不記得上次見他是什麼時候,遺忘了他的生日是幾月幾號,甚至,會挽著別的男友在公開場合與他不期而遇,沖著一臉尷尬的他嫣然一笑,似乎,他只是一個一面之交的普通朋友。可是,羅大佑是個傳統的熱血男子,腦子裏根深蒂固的是夫妻恩愛苦也甜、相看兩不厭的思想。對於我的遊戲人間,他無所適從。可是他真的喜歡我,於是他提出要娶我。結婚對我而言似乎遙不可及,我沒有把自己交給任何男人的計劃。可是,羅大佑真心實意想要娶我,他的確是想與我廝守,好好照顧我的。不知道是因為心軟,還是覺得與羅大佑的婚姻堪稱更閃爍的招牌,我答應了他的求婚。

◆ 轟轟烈烈的婚禮
羅大佑不是個張揚的人,可是我喜歡鋪張奢華的感覺,於是,他給我訂制了法國最新款的婚紗,連裙腳都綴滿了璀璨的鑽石,婚禮就像一個女王的加冕儀式,我還戴上了鑽石王冠。我就是要讓所有的男人失落,讓所有的女人嫉妒。都說新娘應該矜持,可我的一言一行都囂張,我肆無忌憚地笑,和熟識的來賓開著玩笑,舉著一杯香檳風一樣地穿來踱去show著自己的滿身寶石。可憐的新郎一直在到處找我。婚禮還沒開始,他已經大汗淋漓了。最後總算禮畢,可在來賓散去以後,我倆在洞房花燭的甜蜜纏綿前,先開始了婚後的第一次 "談判":他希望我退出娛樂圈,安心在家早日為人母,然後相夫教子,做個新時代的傳統女性;我嗤之以鼻,反問他一年掙的錢是不是比我多,告訴他我一不會放棄事業 ,二不會那麼早當媽媽。談到最後僵住了,他很艱難地從嘴巴裏擠出一句話:" 你到底是不是個女人?"我跳起來大罵他混蛋,摔碎了洞房裏鎮風水的鏡子,在淩晨3點穿著一身婚紗衝出門找 了家陌生的小酒吧開始放縱。第二天早上,當羅大佑找到醉醺醺的我時,他都快哭了,像哄孩子一樣把我哄回家後,他再也不敢跟我有任何衝突。 不過,只要出席任何大型典禮,我會很淑女地穿上禮服,賢淑地挽著他的手准點出現,讓所有人都知道我們多麼恩愛、多麼有默契-羅大佑是我老公,我有面子!典禮終了,興之所至,我會轉眼消失,穿著晚禮服出現在地下音樂吧,留他一人心急如焚地到處尋找。有時,我會心軟,於是在家乖乖做幾天乖老婆。一開始,他異想天開以為我懂事了、轉性了,眉開眼笑地在家陪我,可是乖不了幾天,我就會故伎重施地打回原型……。

◆ 當未婚媽媽,生最炫兒子
新婚夫妻,多半還能寬容相處,可隨著婚姻的年輪跨過一輪又一輪,耐心便慢慢失去。對於我的個性,羅大佑越來越反感,也開始越來越頻繁地訓斥我。到第三年的時候,當他得知我要去加入天體協會的時候,終於怒不可遏地第一次動用了暴力。 夫妻之間,一旦暴力開了頭,必然會愈演愈烈。每次戰爭過後,羅大佑都會很後悔,很誠懇地向我道歉,我也會自我檢討,兩人共同維繫短暫的安寧。終於,我們打累了,心也累了,最後決定離婚。對他而言,看不住老婆固然丟人,可隔三岔五被老婆打更丟人。然而離婚給羅大佑帶來了極大的打擊,為了逃避世人的流言,他隨後便離開了樂壇,做回了醫生的本行。

在離開樂壇前,他寫了最後一首歌 " 是否 " 多少次的寂寞掙扎在心頭,只為換回我將遠去的腳步, 多少次我忍住胸口的淚水,只是為了告訴我自己我不在乎 …… "看著這個年過四旬的男人遠去的背影,我的心裏有一點痛,畢竟,這是第一個愛我到願意娶我,與我分擔憂愁痛苦的男人。音樂是他的生命,可是為了這段失敗的婚姻他竟然不惜退出樂壇,可見他的心真的是被我傷透了。在朋友們的勸說下,他終於重新操起了吉他。不過,他無論如何也不想再呆在臺灣樂壇,而是去了香港。

婚姻的失敗沒給我帶來絲毫悔意,我的性格如故,依然迷醉于萬人景仰,照樣高高在上。只是,30 歲那年,心態忽然有了微妙的變化-我不再滿足于那種飛車勁舞的日子,我忽然很想有個孩子,但是,我沒法定配偶了,誰來幫我這個忙? 在香港,我認識了王靖雄。他是一個溫文爾雅的紳士。他有四輛不同年代不同款式的哈雷機車,我偶爾發瘋的時候,他會跨上另一輛哈雷,和我一起從街頭呼嘯而過。只是,他是個有婦之夫。那又如何?我從未懷疑過自己的魅力-沒有哪個女人比我更優秀,我看上的就一定要得到。況且,能把男人從婚姻裏挖出來才更見魅力。於是,我旁若無人地開始了與王靖雄的交往。 35歲以後,我想當媽媽的念頭越來越固執,我等不及了。 於是,我未婚先孕。

1990年8月16日,我生下兒子王令塵,我給他取了個英文名叫OSCAR(奧斯卡)。 從第一次抱他到懷裏,我就為他計劃出了未來的道路-我要他成為最好的童星,讓所有人知道我張艾嘉所擁有的東西全部都是最好的,不管是婚姻還是後代。 第二天,王靖雄離婚後正式與我結婚,我的育嬰計劃越發清晰:我要從此開始培養兒子,讓他成為"張艾嘉"這個金字招牌上最耀眼的那點金漆。都說"三代出貴族" ,為了培養出兒子的貴族氣質,多從最細微處開始,衣食住行時時處處刻意培養,他稍有不對就馬上糾正。老公說我不像是在養兒子,像是在組裝電腦,把所有最先進最頂級的軟體全部塞進去,卻不知硬碟本身能否容納。

現在看來,兒子當初真的很可憐,不能和別的小朋友一樣在地上摸爬滾打,因為那是沒有教養的表現,從學會走路開始就得像個紳士,從小就開始穿禮服,學習吃西餐,要記得站在汽車前等待司機拉門,再高興也不許哈哈大笑,只能微笑地表示自己很開心。 為了能讓兒子入讀名校,我還效仿" 孟母三遷" 搬往嘉多利山居。等到兒子4歲多的時候,小紳士的雛形已經顯山露水了:一口地道的英式英語無可挑剔;不管是鋼琴還是小提琴,總能很漂亮地來上一段;和我一起去西餐廳,儘管還不能幫我拉椅子,卻一定會等到我落座以後再坐下;在學校裏整天都保持乾淨與禮貌,是所有老師公認的 " 小天使";所有的同學都用仰視的目光看著他……雖然我看得出來兒子並不快樂,可我認定這個選擇沒錯。隨後,我把兒子推到了大眾面前:兒子5歲那年,我應邀前往泰國北部採訪難民村,我帶兒子隨行,拍攝過程中,我把部分臺詞讓兒子背熟,然後將他推到了攝影機前。電視臺播放後,香港頓時轟動,所有人都驚為天才。在香港成功後,我隨即帶著兒子殺回臺灣,帶他參與了一個國際品牌的童裝展示會,並讓他上臺走童裝秀。各大媒體紛紛對此大肆報道,兒子在一夜之間又紅透臺灣。以後的日子裏,我利用自己的知名度不遺餘力地打造著兒子,而他的表現也處處可圈可點,很快成了第一童星。

◆ 上帝把兒子還給我,我把自由還給兒子可是,
我忘記了一件事情-香港並非太平盛世,經濟不景氣的時候,最先被別人盯上的就是曝光率高的明星。很不幸,兒子被人盯上了。兒子在九龍城喇沙利道喇沙小學讀四年級,學校離家有一段頗長的路程。平日上下學都有傭人接送,可是, 2000年 7 月 5 日,傭人沒有接到兒子,幾個小時後,接到了最不願接到的電話 ……兒子被綁架了,綁匪開價 2000萬元港幣。 綁匪在電話裏的聲音陰森而恐怖:" 你兒子現在是童星,你是大導演,他絕對值這個價錢,你也拿得出這筆錢。給你 3 天時間,交錢的地點我會再通知你。別玩花樣,不然,就等著給你兒子收屍吧! "我頓時癱軟了,我做夢也沒料到,自己的苦心打造竟會給兒子帶來殺身之禍!為了籌集贖金,我緊急賣了樓,取空了所有的銀行存款,可是,才不過 800萬元而已。
與綁匪在電話裏討價還價之後,終於敲定以 800萬元成交。儘管綁匪一再威脅不許報警,在再三斟酌後,我們還是通知了東九龍重案組。 在警方的授意下,我們以籌措贖金為由向綁匪拖延時間,警方很快通過電話監聽跟蹤查出了綁匪的藏身之處,火速行動將3名綁匪一舉擒獲。當我打開兒子藏身箱子的時候,倒吸一口涼氣-綁匪已經在箱子裏準備好了香燭冥紙,很明顯,他們已經做好了收到錢就撕票的打算。抱著失而復得的兒子,我連哭的力氣都沒有了。 此次遭受綁架對兒子造成極大的刺激,他開始神經質地自問:再也不願意與我一起出席任何公共場合,一回家就鑽進自己的房間鎖上門,就連叫他吃飯也不出來,把飯送到門口也不開門,只允許傭人把飯放在門口,等傭人離開了才偷偷開門自己把飯拿進去。看著以往舉重若輕的兒子如今像一隻惴惴不安的小鼠般草木皆兵,我的心疼了又疼。
當初,我的婚姻招牌沒留住羅大佑;如今,我的再婚招牌還會失去曾經活潑靈動的兒子,諮詢了無數心理專家,得到的建議只有一個-時間療法。 我咽下眼淚,告訴自己: 有什麼大不了呢?老天已經對我很寬厚了,把活生生的兒子還給了我。我開始學著用母愛的本能去和他共處,一切的一切都是為了讓他高興,由著他去做他想做的事情:他擯棄牛排去啃漢堡包;請同學回家來鬧得翻天覆地;和那些以前我嗤之以鼻的不富貴沒氣質的同學打成一團;他開始穿便宜的T 恤和牛仔褲;不再把頭髮三七分得細緻、梳得一絲不苟;不在我的監督下練樂器、苦著臉去聽交響樂……假日的時候,我帶他出去旅遊,不再帶他去這個博物館那個藝術宮。 我放任他自己挑選目的地和所有的旅遊專案。
有一次遊狄斯奈樂園,他拖我陪他坐在過山車的第一排,隨著過山車的翻滾倒轉,我們情不自禁一起尖叫,兒子緊緊抓著我的手,抓得很緊很緊,仿佛將他所有的力量和希望都寄託在這一握上。下了過山車,手依然沒有鬆開,我彎下腰將兒子一把摟進懷裏,他攬住我的脖子,臉蛋貼在我的脖子上,呼吸一絲一絲地縈繞著我的耳畔。好久沒有這樣抱過兒子了。 還有一次在埃及,我們騎著一頭駱駝,在金字塔前面端詳獅身人面像,兒子坐在前面,靠在我懷裏,駱駝脖子上的鬃毛蹭得他的小腿發癢,我讓他將腿盤起來,半躺在我的懷裏,左手幫他撫摸著蹭紅的小腿,右手 輕輕摸著他的頭髮。兒子忽然動了動,將腦袋往我的胸前擠了擠,夢囈般道:" 媽媽,謝謝!"
我讓他成為全校最優秀的學生,他沒有謝謝我; 我讓他成為當紅第一童星,他沒有謝謝我; 我傾家蕩產去交贖金,他也沒有謝謝我。 ......... 可就在落日大漠裏,靠在我懷裏的時候,他那麼由衷地感謝我。一句謝謝,頓時讓我覺得所有的榮耀都無法與之相提並論。 我發覺這樣的生活才是兒子真正覺得幸福和滿足的日子。三年的恢復,兒子終於痊癒了。 隨著兒子的改變,我身上也在發生著本質的變化,我不再張揚,學會了理解和同情,變得成熟和內斂,難怪外界都評論我是一個因為痛苦而長大的媽媽。

Monday, July 07, 2008